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I am once again a cat owner!

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 22:27:26 GMT

After so many years of being a strict dog lover, I have crossed to the other side and got a cat. I really wanted two cats, but unfortunately the one I was in love with was adopted yesterday. His name was G.W. and he had only one eye. He was the cutest cat alive, and quite the love. He and James, the cat I now have, were the clinic cats at the animal hospital I work at. Unfortunately they were too high maintenance for my boss, and they were sent off to the shelter. Against all odds, i convinced Nick to let me take one home, so this weekend I called the shelter and told them to hold G.W. for me until sunday. Well, I guess they just couldn't wait, and they adopted him out. Needless to say, when I reached the shelter today and found out, I was pretty upset. However I was glad he had a nice home and hoped everything worked out. Though I was not as close with James, I decided that he deserved a chance too, and took him home. He was very upset at the shelter, and not eating well. When I came to see him today, he perked right up. I think this will work out well.
Now I have a sweet, gray tiger cat wandering around the apartment, sounding off meows every now and then. I hope he soon feels that this is his home.

Going to the "Market". (He's so damn cute)

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 01:08:50 GMT

In the end, I suppose everything worked out ok- and it ultimately will in the end. All my undue nervousness and anxiety did a lot to keep me thin throughout my youth, and now I'm embracing the fact that you can't always worry about everyone and everything around you. I'm also beginning to fill out a bit I guess. People begin to refer to me as a "woman", not a "young woman" or a "girl". I just passed my birthday and reached an age I never really thought about reaching. It was kinda like 21 was the only landmark age I saw.
I'm so "ok" with everything around me and am feeling a new feeling of security and control in my life. There's no longer a reason for nervousness, because I have reach a place that is a constent, consistant life--and it's not all that bad.
Yes, I now am graduated and got a great, full time job that is preparing me for my future goals. I have a nice place to live with people I love, and I'm happy. I secure, and happy and content. For those who have known me any length of time, this truly is a landmark. Of course, it could also be a manic phase..
So I haven't gotten all the things I wished for as I matured. It's not the ideal life- it's not perfect. But it's so real, it's almost better than ideal. I've felt pain like no other, I've reached some pretty tough lows, and I've pushed through each time.

From a small dark apartment, face lit from the blue glow of the computer screen, I bid you all goodnight. ;p

Quizes are mindless fuuuunnn......

Tue, 11 May 2004 16:03:15 GMT

My outercourse activity is snuggling!

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My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.

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Life after college?

Tue, 11 May 2004 15:54:19 GMT

Ok, so I have sort of decided there is a possibility. But I'm not going to go down without a fight, or so my brain which tends to do as it pleases has decided. SO much of what has been going on makes me feel guilty for my bad attitude as of late. I've got a great apartment with people (and a dog) who I love tremendously, and I've finally found a vet school I stand a chance of actually being accepted to with my crappy grades. Did I mention it's in the Caribbean? Couldn't get much better than that... Yet I'm still in a funk beyond belief. I guess I just need to adapt better to change, or get struck by lightening or something....

too early....

Sat, 01 May 2004 00:04:56 GMT

It's 8:00 in the evening and I haven't been sober for quite some time...
I plan on loosing total control tonight.
Graduation is less than a month away.
My life is soon to be over.
Eek.

Basking in the feilds of never-never...

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 16:53:42 GMT

I haven't been to a bio lab in about three weeks, class in about two...I've kinda given up on this semester. Too bad I decided to get lazy my last time around....

The question of the year: Will Jeanette ever actually graduate?

Well, at least I'm going down in glory and having a damn good time of it. That's gotta count for something...

Help.

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 04:33:51 GMT

Which 1990's Subculture Do You Belong To?

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mama said there'd be days like this

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 04:13:18 GMT

Today has found me in a position unlike any I have ever been in. It has been one of those days that made for TV movies lead you to believe college would be like. I'm living a fucking crap-ass tv movie script...I can't tell if that is bad or good...

Happy 4:20....

Tue, 20 Apr 2004 05:48:18 GMT

Any excuse will do.....

Yawning before the sun comes up

Sat, 17 Apr 2004 06:35:03 GMT

This could be it. After six hours of walking in Relay for Life I'm finally tired and ready for bed before the sun has come up. I'm sad I couldn't stay for the entire 18 hours of the relay, but this cold is kicking my ass and I need to crash.

Of course, I could finally be able to sleep because of a huge weight off my chest. For once, Financial Aid screwed up in my favor and gave me way too much money from a loan. As a result, I received an excess check for $3703.00!! *Fanfuckingtabulous*. Now I can pay off the credit card, put the security deposit on my new apartment and pay off some of the loan that they want me to begin paying off in June. For once, things are going my way.
Can't help but wonder what disaster is in store for me. I"m never this lucky...*crosses fingers*

I'm also lucky for this great apartment I found. Though it pales in comparison to the barn I stayed in last summer in sheer sweetness, I was able to find a place that was almost as good. Two big bedrooms, a real kitchen, a bathtub and a pretty big living room. It's quite the functional apartment for a really low price. If I end up liking it after living there for the summer, I'll probably stay as I am not going back to school. And the love of my life is staying with me as well! Her name is Lindy, and she's the cutest, sweetest and smartest siberian husky in the universe, hands down. Also one of my best friends from school, Caitlin, is going to be my house mate. I'm looking forward to one crazy, wonderful summer.
Oh yeah, and Nick is staying too....;)

Ok, you can all hit me now. I guess I'm having a super-lucky streak... I hope my luck holds out in finding a job. I don't know if even I'll be that lucky--the valley seems to eat job luck...

'Everything is gonna be alright'

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 06:53:14 GMT

Walking back from DB Mart at two in the morning, so much became clear to me about why I'm up all night and have been since spring break. Something has changed in my life that had such a drastic effect, and I didn't even know it. Not until now did I realize just how much she has changed my life. She makes me want to be strong again, to force myself to be who I've always dreamed of being. I feel like all the great parts of my life are slowly coming together, and it's freaking me the fuck out.
Now I just have to keep myself from crashing, and it just might all work out okay.

Just over a year ago, my best friend and very heartbeat was taken from me. Her illness was sudden, and her life over within a week of becoming sick. My worst case senerio finally happened, and I was broken down completely. I hit the proverbial bottom, and was letting myself slowly die as well. Sick all summer, I ached to take away the pain she felt in that one week of hell, and punished myself for not being there. With such intense pain, I forgot everything else that once plauged me. I had nowhere to go but up.
This past year has been the best year of my life. On the one year anniversery of Kapuga's death I realized how she helped me change my life for good. Her short life and untimely death brought me further than I ever hoped to go. It allowed me to be in a place where I could possibly do the same for another. I hope all I've grown in the past year is enough to help her as well. No one who is loved dies in vane.

Early Morning Rain

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 07:41:03 GMT

So, once again I have slept all day and am awake all night. Even Nick can't seem to keep up with my new, bizarre sleep schedule and has been sleeping for about an hour now. I honestly don't know what is going on to make me so restless...

I came back to my room to find my hermaphrodite hamster, Moxy, had escaped from the new cage I got her. Ungrateful little fuck does nothing but try to escape and make unnecessary amounts of noise, while I'm spending my last dime to expand her habitat. *sigh* I feel so bad when Moxy is going berserk in the cage, swinging from the door, chewing and clawing. But nothing I do seems to help. No matter how much attention, or exercise in her ball, she always seems to be unhappy with her situation. Of course I totally understand her blight. I wouldn't want to live in a tiny cramped cage, no matter how many neat tubes and colorful lookouts there were. Yet there is very little I can do for her. In her cages, I care for her, provide food and water and clean for her. If I let her go free, there is certain death from all directions. But she would be free if even for a short amount of time. Isn't that the whole human dilemma? Which death sentence is worse? Neither is a fair fight, and there is never a second round.

Heh...

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 20:58:40 GMT

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category	Your Score	Average
Self-Lovin'	38.3% When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself	65.1%
Shamelessness	61.9% It takes a couple of drinks	79.4%
Sex Drive	68.4% A fool for love, but not always	77.7%
Straightness	10.7% Knows the other body type like a map	45%
Gayness	96.4% Repressed, are we?	83.6%
Fucking Sick	85.8% Refreshingly normal	90%
You are 59.85% pure Average Score: 72.7%
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"It's 3 o'clock in the morning, and I'm hungry so let's eat."

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 08:09:30 GMT

My insomnia knows no bounds.

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"There's nothing happily ever after about a woman who will break herself in two"

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 05:56:47 GMT

So, the time must have finally felt right for you babe. I'm so unbelievably relieved, you have no idea. Your strides in the past few weeks prove your strength. You are well on your way to happily ever after.

I bow to you Caitlin- you are the strongest person I know by far.

If you steal my sunshine...

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 02:35:50 GMT

There are few times that I get so angry about what's going on around I revert to an almost primal stage- where I allow my passions to take hold and control my actions. Though this does not happen often, I feel like it could happen more in the future with all that's been going on. The only times I allow myself to go wild have to do with anger mostly. I would have to say that this has only happened a few times in the past, but those times are quite memorable for me and those who witnessed the explosion. The tension is building, and my anger level is as well.
The passion that I feel for what's going on here is pretty much taking over most of my thoughts. There is so little I can do, and this frustration and anger is swelling and churning- it will all boil over soon. I guarantee it will not be pretty.
All I have to say is a word of warning to our "pal" who is causing this tension: you had better change your tune, dude. 'Cause there is little holding me back from snapping on you, I have very little to loose at this point that matters to me, and so much more to gain when you are gone. My heart aches for her freedom, and I will do all I can, I promise.

my first post!

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 23:52:17 GMT

Man, what a day. I finally got this thing set up, and I don't even have time to post anything substantial. Maybe after staff meeting....